First winter snow incident

Every one once in their life wishes to experience the snow.

December 2, 2012
5:40 AM
I was awakened by God when my feet rushed me to the toilet, then after peeing I looked outside and saw the white crystallized ground. My first reaction with a very low voice was "Wwwwoooohhhww". It was an enchanting and dramatic moment of my life, I couldn't imagine at that time another wish in my bucket list will be crossed out. I'd been wishing this ever since and at last they're just right in the corner. It occurs to me that I should probably wake up my cousins, right there I ran back to the room and whispered "Ate, Nag-i-snow na!" to my cousin's ear. She maddingly opened her eyes went to the window and exultingly screamed "WAaaahhh!!!" She did the same, she ran toward the room and breathlessly jumped which lasted for 3 minutes. Impromptu, we'd worn our usual outdoor attire and dressed up anticipating first time good pictures with it and so we went out just like kids, played, laid, and enjoyed our first time.

And certainly right in my hands, the fluffy, powdered granules of the ice which melts on my face brought aid to my lonely heart, it was a magical feeling. At that moment in my life I wished that my love is beside me, hugging me tight as he could or we could have a snow balls fight, or we could build our own snowmen family, or we could have a romantic walk while it is snowing or right when it is about to snow as we are gently holding each other's hand or better yet, its nice to walk into our warm home while we drink some hot cocoa sitting next to a fireplace watching the snow with him. As if our love has no end.

Since then, just in a flash I have witnessed and felt the importance of snow.

Here are some of the shots------>>>>>>>

Why does it had to be you?

How do you stop the rain from falling?
And how can I stop myself from loving you? Why does it have to be? It had to be you?
How can I erase a beautiful rainbow? When this love has nowhere to go?
But why am I so blue because It just had to be you?
 
The beautiful rainbow that I was talking about which I waited for quite long time has arrived and started early of this year. We struggled as friends so we set some rules and limits. I thought I could manage my feelings, so I said we cannot go across the line. But after several months of controlling my personal feelings, I've fallen in-love with a man who cannot love only one person. So I proposed not to see him again, but apparently he didn't wanted me to go away from him, then finally said "He loves me" I've reminded him that he might just forgetting his current life and situation. But he disregarded it as for him, he wanted to enjoy the days with me, so he lost control and we became both confused everyday, we let everyday pass with the usual companion of each others voice over the phone almost about whole time of the day. Our relationship bloomed and what had followed was unconscious courtship, sleepless nights, frequent dates and then, much to our mutual wonderment, love.

I find myself frequently asks or think of the same questions above. I'm kinda alarmed for it's being repetitive every single idle time. I guess it's not that I am having some regrets from it "I believe I don't" but I think it's just because I miss "US".... I'm lost inside my mind and I can't stop myself from shedding tears. I've learned that it's true, love is really beyond our control.

Dear Ex,
Even though we aren't together and I hear nothing from you, I hope you're okay. Persevere with your dreams. If you keep on fighting you will defeat the opponent (our love), resist the temptation to talk to me like what you're doing now. It's been month and a half and I still carry the loneliness but worry not much I know it's part of moving on. I wish I could stop the pain and the rain from falling, I might can't escape now but soon it will because it just really takes time. Still I thank God for he has chosen me to be his instrument and I thank you for making me feel loved.
Advanced Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Love,
Rannellie

You served well 21st year, thank you.

New age, new year, new me.

Ten more days to go and I'll say goodbye to my 21st age I'll get to be 22 on Dec. 7 and since the Catholic liturgical year has ended last Sunday, I want to share my gratitude as I recall the year. It's merely an early New year's day reflection.
Over the past 12 months I have received so much blessings, gone through some extraordinary experiences and life changing decisions and learning. I am glad to highlight here my most loved moments. I bind down some important areas to serve as a reminder of how God graced me with a not so wonderful but a gorgeous simple life to be always thankful for.

1. Travelled around Ilocos sur/norte
2. Baked cakes for my friends and family
3. Travelled to Bantayan and Virgin islands of Cebu
4. Helped my parents in my own capabilities
5. Has been a regular employee as an intuit web advisor in Sutherland global services from Aug 1 2011 till June 2012
6. Was able to brought joy to my customers over the phone technically or emotionally with the problems of their business.
7. Owned domain name www.thingsunderthesun.net
8. I'd packed my bags last minute of my flight to conquer Cebu for a sole (soul) retreat for 3 days. Success.
9. Able to love someone dearly
10. More honest to myself and to other's around me
11. Gifted my father and grandma a comeback vacation to their province.
12. Went abroad, travelled alone across to Europe via Qatar for the first time
13. Was able to make my friends, brothers, sisters in church to really feel my love for them  by genuinely sharing of my own gifts
14. Was able to celebrate my first boyfriend's birthday in my most sweetest surprise
15. I was able to help or at least comfort a needy friend
16. I was able to help my grandma and mama
17. Has been one of the judges on Sto Domingo parish's annual event called ''kantahan" whereas my teenage years, I was just one of the event staffs. It is a way to celebrate the feast of Sto Domingo  De Guzman, showcasing singing talents around the vicinity of SDP, QC.
18. Been part of some sessions of Mukhaad, and i think or i hope i was able to somehow inspire some of the batch 23 participants
19. A first kiss from my boyfriend
20. Done with my most feared thrilling and crazy rides in Tivoli amusement park
21. Driven by sacrifice which defines love, I had first break up, first heart break. But it ended peacefully and divinely.
22. I'm now more concerned with my personal life and happiness not depending on other people's opinion.
23. Learned to select and trust only the people who deserved it
24. Was able to teach as a voice teacher in Yamaha Valenzuela to few kids during last summer
25. Was able to talk with my brother and cousins about my idea, visions and plans for the betterment of our condition
26. Collected most precious memories and pictures of my family-mad-moj-collegues-co-workers-special friends
27. I'm now more concerned and determined to achieve my personal growth for the better me
28. Reconciled and re-bonded with some old friends
29. More healthier, fit and courageous
30. Reclaimed myself by the help of the arts of music, painting, online live-journal, photography, and other interests.

Instead of thinking about those things I didn't have, I have lost, and what I won't have, I focused on the positive things I consider as important as they occur to me everyday. I acknowledge myself for the things I've accomplished, things I am grateful for and proud of, the positive changes I made in my life, Including some ways that I've grown as a person. 

For you who might fear that this exercise is a tad self-indulgent, remember this:  

SEEING THE GOOD IN OTHERS STARTS WITH SEEING THE GOOD IN OURSELVES.  

Have a prosperous New Year! :)

Smiles on cam, becoming vain.

Today is my 70th day away from home where my heart is, I was a bit out of my mind early this morning so I decided to go out and chill. Still waiting for the school's letter for my schedule and I can't wait to start. I always remember a lot of good memories with my family, friends and loved one. Sometimes I cry, but most of the times, they make me smile. They're my inspiration and I thank them for being there for me when I'm in most need of company. But you know, I think it's necessary for me to learn how to feel happy with my own company. I need to train myself to stay happy with or without some folks.

I cycled about 10 kilometers outdoor to seize the bright and sunny day, good thing i brought the cam with me. Upon being tired, I sat down in a free large area then I began to realize and think of ''what the hell am I doing?'' already taking 50 photos of myself alone? Gggeeezzz I am now a certified camwhore. 
Well because of the camera, I smile. So i took more and more of myself. 
Remember that If you smile, you will always feel better.
I didn't care what the Danes might be thinking when they watch my moves in the field. 

I only cared for my own entertainment, 

my own day, and my own business so 

I smile and smiled all day. 

AMa-vain.

BUBBLY ME!  ;)

When you wish upon a star

I always believe in the idea or in the superstition of hoping for wishes granted when you pray and wish when you see a shooting or falling star. Today I am happy that one of my wishes for this year came true (I got my early birthday gift- My canon dslr). Remember that every wish has to wait for its right time to be in your own hands. When you are frustrated about something that you force everything to happen, chances are you might receive substandard class and you loose the chance of having the best of what you deserve. Or somebody will enjoy what should be yours but because you can't wait, you steal chances then after awhile, you will feel busted because it's not really for you Karma happens.

Face the facts:
#1. Not all is possible to have- Don't be so Idealistic. Not all is for you, not everything will be in accordance of what you want nor what you wished. We can't have it all so instead, learn to wish for something achievable and useful. Not all will be ours but stay intact and still, hope for the best and work with what you have at the moment.
#2. Some things are freely given like a bonus. So lucky you to gain something without breaking your bones or feeling sweat. Cherish, enjoy  and share that precious gift. There is a reason why we receive everything in surprises.


Now, I'm keeping myself on a positive outlook. I enjoy capturing landscapes, places, events, people, food, things, everything in the universe and you know my most favorite subject is? The picture above shows my addiction. When the world is asleep, when the sun is down, I'm dying to take photos of stars. Although it's freezing me outside looking at them every night, they never fail to make me feel good at the end of the day. They are my listener, they're my happiness, they're my company, they're my friend, my hope, there is my love.

Broilers & Eggs

When i was a kid, my uncle used to have his broilers in a barren at the back of their house, and there was a day where I hatched some piece of the laid eggs. Oh wait I'm talking 'bout them cause of the vision I have tonight.  

Since I dream to have my own poultry farm, I'm gonna make a business plan for this investment. I expect that it would be hard at first because of the fact  that I never had an experience of taking care of 'em not even a chic. It may or may not be an easy money but i know that this is something I would love to have.
BUSINESS is the only way to be wealthy enough to support myself, my family and my future. 
We know that it ain't easy to be separated or away from our families and loved ones for a long period so I think it is time for me to start saving money from what i can do here in Denmark then sooner or later reach this simple ambition so that my sacrifices would be worthy and beneficial in the long run.

The funny fact is I am really fond of Chicken and eggs and if I'd be something edible I'd like to be EGG. 
Hahahaha See? I catch you smiling. But because egg is a kind of common food in our daily life, it contains abundance, it has a lot of use, it is convenient and it is very beneficial I'd choose to be it. Now you had a better understanding why egg.

The sad part is they live fast and die young, that's the life of a broiler.

Today I envision myself as a happy business owner. I need enough knowledge, capital, good plan, good place, good work, determination and proper management. This business must be a success!

Target year: 2014
Proposed budget: P.100,000.00

Love, so divine.

Hello friends! Maybe you haven't seen this very good 2004 Korean romantic comedy film under the directorial debut of Heo In-moo. I fetched the links together from youtube so you can watch it whole in this page. It's a story of a young seminarian who falls in love with a chic young woman and soon he must choose between his religious calling or the love he has for the woman.
Kim Gyu-Shik (Kwon Sang-Woo) the main character is a serious young man who has always worked towards his life ambition... to serve God as a Catholic priest. When he gets assigned to a small church in rural Korea, Gyu-Shik meets the Pastor's niece, Bong-Hee (Ha Ji-Won) who has just come back from the United States. Of course films like this always have a happy ending story.



Makes me wonder did the writer/s had the same experience? I wonder if
the writer did changed his/her bitter ending in reality so to make the
audiences believe in the power of romantic love? The actors did it very
well. Sometimes i replay the film because it has been one of my
favorites.

My honest fair share: I admire them for making things right, for being
courageous enough, and for choosing what they really love. I had no idea
 why he wanted me to see this film at first but soon after watching, I
saw my self to Bong-hee having the same struggles. I knew choosing
between two good paths is as difficult as you can never imagine. Our
ending was the reverse side of their choice. But however in any way my
friend and I promised to each other that we'll be happy with what we'd
chose, with what we deserve, wherever we are, and whatever we do. 3
weeks after my arrival in Copenhagen we decided to let the love fly by.
Well I guess I have to embrace my choice. So.... To myself, you're
on your way, keep on going and smile. ;)

Copenhagen at night

 From the central station, Ate and I decided to just walk towards home with matching cold weather it's absolutely nice.

 I honestly don't know the significance of this monument.

The central station

Me eating chocolate rice crisps

Natural lightning

ISO 100

Using the low light setting is kinda complicated

Velkommen til mit liv vinter!

I woke up chilling beside my cousin hearing Christmas songs played on their pads. Then we remembered Christmas, New year, Birthdays and all those holiday stuffs.

Cousin1:  (ref to us) Kelangan masanay ang mga bago dito pag pasko at bagong taon. 
Cousin2: Oo nga, pero iba parin simoy ng hangin sa pinas pag ber months, pag malapit na ang Christmas.

Today, with this morning and breakfast we had, It definitely made me feel like missing a lot in Philippines.
Few minutes after I tweeted my friends and family who i badly miss. God, I miss my life in Ph but thank you so much for having me here. I couldn't imagine how time goes by so fast, My phone automatically updated its time zone last night, It changed from 6 hours now Ph is 7 hours ahead to Denmark. Hello and welcome to my life winter (Velkommen til mit liv vinter)!

It was about 4:00 PM after my church service at Lyngby, I went in to the store center which is like a mall in Philippines to have a window shopping. There was this very good and beautiful winter jacket in H&M that is on 50% sale but after grabbing it, i caught myself converting the price to peso again. Conversion is always making me feel a lil' disturbed although I know I badly need it (forgive my cleverness for now, I'll wait for my cousin's used winter jackets it don't matter to me). There's no Christmas songs, There's just a few people walking in the stores, and no people such in a hurry. At 4:30 PM the stores inside closed down their automated doors for it is time for them. And it was time for me to go home. And at just about 5pm I saw the sky so dark with the waning gibbous moonlight, a time which is something like a midnight in Ph.

I'm a little bit excited to see and feel how the Nordic people celebrates white Christmas and holidays but i feel like i will curse the painful cold weather in a matter of few weeks. The daylight is just for few hours- awful. But part of me says "just enjoy your stay" and i do.

Kapag ako ay nagmahal

Ibibigay ang lahat-lahat
Handa ''kong gawin
Lahat ng 'yong hiling
Sukli man ay sugat sa puso
Karamay ka
Sa hirap at saya
Masaktan mo man
Damdamin ko
Ako'y nandyan pa rin sa 'yong tabi

Kapag ako ay nagmahal
Ang lahat ng ito'y magagawa
'Di magbabago, 'di maghahangad
Ng anumang kapalit
Kapag ako ay nagmahal
Umiyak man ako hindi ko ito
ikakahiya
Handa akong magtiis
Kapag ako, kapag ako ay nagmahal
Sa 'yo lamang
Iikot aking mundo
Sa 'kiy bale-wala
Sasabihin ng iba
Basta't alam ko
Mahal kita

Hindi ka man maging akin
Lahat ng ito'y gagawin
Kapag ako, kapag ako ay nagmahal

Sapagkat ako ay hindi pa dinadalaw ng antok at ang nakakamiss ng mga mahal sa buhay.
Buti nalang talaga may youtube.