Đừng lo Ate Nga!

Bạn bao nhiêu tuổi? 72 that was the first answer you gave me when I asked your age. Smart me that I got that answer right away and managed to have that getting to know conversation. Time's fast.

I was questioning myself what went wrong with you. Today I want the world to know this someone who's very special to me. She's my sister by choice of our Father in heaven. I was given to her and she's to me for God's great purpose only us could feel as sisters.

She taught me to live my life to the fullest.

She's very wise, good at almost all things, someone who's not so beautiful (joke), a happy person despite of hers. She who takes time to be with me to do funny simple happy things together, someone who never failed to cheer me up, someone who has the capacity of hitting my nape or forehead whenever I'm at the state of my stupidity. Someone who shares her own food and strength to me to make me feel good. She always try to help me to bring out the best of me. She encourages me more than a real sister can do. She is real, she is especial and wonderful. Dear Ate Nga, I wouldn't lie to you here. Tôi bị lạc. I'm getting more than sad whenever I see you sad or quiet. There's this awkwardness between us for the past 3-4 days and I don't want what's going on. I can't let you to be always like that, be fair to me ate.. You all know what I've been through but I hate that you are not telling me how you really feel. I can understand you Đừng lo... I am really worried to you even if you say you're just fine because I can see that you're troubled this day. You're changing a little bit. I am afraid to wake up one day without you here in Copenhagen. I know people come and go but like what I've told you, you're one of those people who I really treasure and love. Thank you for helping me to stand against and again. For teaching me. Bạn thật tốt! For loving me as your little sister. I wish that we will still continue our sisterhood until the end of our lives. Even if we are apart, got boyfriends or get married and have kids. I want to grow old knowing that I always have you as my big sister. Ate... Tôi thích đến Việt Nam một ngày nào đó and have good days with you there someday. Đừng lo! Tôi yêu bạn!

 Dear Father,

Thank you for allowing us to meet in this world. I pray for her good fortune and success in life. She's a great sister so please reward her of a very blessed and happy life. Let her always feel your love. Make her more beautiful because she needs that (kidding aside hahaha). Make her always safe and secured. Bless her father as she is always a blessing to us. I pray for our sisterhood to have no end for I love her like a real sister too. Father, grant her a peaceful mind and lastly, please select the best for her as you direct her toward her future plans. Thank you Father.

-Bong hee moon gyu young. LOL! Cha

Happy 25th ate Joyce!

Parang kahapon lang naglalaro tayo sa Tom's world at nagvivideoke, ngayon birthday mo nanaman. Nakiki ayon ang panahon at pabilis ng pabilis ang mga araw ilang taon nalang magkikita na ulit tayo. Malapit na yun haha.. I hope maging madali na sa atin ang communication para lagi na tayo magkausap.. I miss you ate........... Super. I am really thankful kay Lord as I always say, kasi I know dumaan man ang lang birthday and all we will remain good friends and sisters in Christ. I love you te, and I really mean it. I'll always pray for you.Ingat ka palagi, and I'm just waiting online to share time with you ate... 

Thank you for all. Cheers to your new year!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

I LOVE YOU! 

-CHA

Kakamiss!

I am grateful for my life.

Hey, What's up? How are you doing? How'd you feel today? What's your plan for tomorrow? Would you try new things today? Are ye going somewhere for a walk? What's on your mind now? Are you going to see a special someone today or a special place maybe? What's in there, and who's gonna be with you?


Dear blog,

If I would describe what I have been feeling this year, it is GRATEFULNESS. Today we had the very late celebration of Christmas and new year with Saint Anne's Music Ministry members and it was great. I am grateful that in everyday that I chose to spend with them I always find myself smiling on my way home. I am grateful for having this place, people and ministry in my life. Wala pa ang spring pero nagsisimula na namang magmahal ang puso ko.


Sa aking mahal na Ama,

There are a lot of things na lubos kong pinasasalamatan sayo. Patuloy mo parin akong binibigyan ng direksyon kahit na may mga pagkakataong lumilihis akong kusa sa landas ko.
Masaya kong iniisip na kahit na ganito ako, hindi mo ako inilalayo sa loob mo, at lalo mo akong hinihila papalapit sayo. Panginoon sa araw araw na patuloy akong namumuhay sa ibang bayan, marami akong natututunan sa buhay. Di matatawaran ang mga karanasang aking nadaranasan at aral sa buhay na aking natututunan. Salamat po sa mga taong ipinagkaloob mo sa akin upang kumalinga at gumabay sa akin, nawa'y biyayaan nyo pa po sila ng mas masigla at masaganang buhay dahil sa kabusilakan ng kanilang puso at pagmamahal ng tunay sa kapwa nilang naglilingkod sayo Panginoon. Salamat po sa talentong nagbibigay ng kulay at daan upang magamit ko saan man ako mapunta, batid kong hindi ako ang pinaka-magaling ngunit inilagay mo ako sa posisyong ito. Isang bagong mission at responsibilidad na dapat kong tugunan sa ngalan mo Ama. Alam mong ang tunay na hangarin ng aking puso'ay maglingkod lamang sa iyo kaya naman patnubayan nyo po sana ako sa bawat salitang aking sasambitin, sa aking mga plano, sa aking pakikitungo, sa pakikipagrelasyon sa aming kumunidad, gabayan nyo po ako sa bawat gawain ko na sana'y magawa ko ng tama at walang kulang, hipuin at gabayan mo ang aking mga kamay habang ako'y tumutogtog at nagbabahagi ng musika para sayo Panginoon, hangad kong maipalapit ang puso ng aking mga kapatid sa iyong bigkis sana'y maramdaman nila ang bawat pitik ng aking kamay sa pag-awit ng musika.Ito na marahil ang isa sa mga pinakamagandang iniregalo mo sa akin Panginoon, ni kailanman hindi ko inisip na ganito pala ang dulot ng iyong biyaya sa akin. Panginon, maraming maraming salamat po sa iyong walang sawang pag-suporta at pagmamahal. Patuloy akong mamumuhay araw araw ng may pag-asa dahil sayo. Panginoon, dalangin ko rin po ang kasiyahan ng aking mga kapamilya, kaibigan at mga taong nalulugmok sa kalungkutan at pagkalito na tila hindi makita ang daan patungo sa iyo. Madalas akong napapaiyak dahil sa mga suprises mo, ito ang tunay na buhay. Salamat dahil sa hirap at ginhawa kasama kita. Habangbuhay akong maglilingkod sayo Panginoon, Mahal na mahal ko po kayo.

Christmas Dedications

I can't help not to think about my far away loved ones so I wrote letters for you.


Dear Mojc,
Today you celebrated our Christmas party. I waited all day hoping that I could see you via skype but it seems that you'd forgotten me, that I was online awaiting for you. But to move on, I understand and it's ok.
This is the first year of my absence in our annual Christmas party. To my Ate Irene, Vhanj, Rhea, Heidi, Nicka Aj and Lhen, this is the first year that I wouldn't be able to hug you and greet you personally. Remember few years ago? We were hopeless and felt helpless each week, having less than 10 people serving in the choir? Some had even suggested to surrender the service but we didn't stop from there, rather we restarted and renewed our commitments to our Mother. I am really glad we did that and I am happy to see our numbers growing. We were all together in the fight, we solidly dedictated our time, money and efforts to continue the fire burning. Remember the goofy stuffs we made? And oh the charities we've made to happen too? Do you remember when we were on a caroling where this group of men called us to sing for them as they heard us caroling on their neighbor's door and they said "Because of your voices we felt the true spirit Christmas" It's as if they were not sober talking normally to us. I know we are not the finest choir in Sto. Domingo but we're one of a kind. I guess what made us alive is our true dedication and love to serve. I guess that is how a soldier should fight. For the current members, You are the hope of the group, continue to serve and don't stop. Thank you for continuing the legacy which has started 18 years ago. I'll see you in the future.

To my Mukhaad dearest Brothers and Sisters,
I believe I've already said piece before I left physically. I terribly miss the Sunday sessions, especially those people who are really close to my heart. Ate Joyce, Apa, Kuya allecks, Albert, Cam, Toto, Ate Che, Carol, the brothers and friends, I remember going to Ust paskuhan, banio kreek, malls, group dates, Toms world, Dapitan arcade, Tagaytay, and the mad office itself with you. Those? It all made my Sundays extraordinary happy. You were unconscious that I was actually regaining myself thru you. I can't wait to see you. I am certain you are missing me too.. If ever we'll play a game, please I dont want it to be "WHO IS?" because you know I might say Greg instead of Genard. Lols. 

To my Especial friend,
Even if we are try to kill the love we have, even if we chose to stay away from each other, and even if we force ourselves to shut our hearts. We can't win because we can't force to make things happen right away. I've recovered myself from our painful cut. I couldn't force myself to erase everything about you or you alone in my heart and my thoughts, I mean I've tried, but I only looked miserable and desperate. So, I think I should stop doing so. Maybe it's merely because of the anecdote I forgot to use, they said that "There is no remedy for love but to love more" It's applicable therefore, I've decided to let go now, to surrender all to our God and to silently continue my love for you as a friend. 

To all my friends,
May you feel the God's presence not just this Christmas season but in everyday of your lives. May he grant you the desires and wishes you are always praying for. May you serve as an inspiration to others by doing God's will in your simplest way. See you around.

To my Family, 
Thank you for being at my back, we can do this! I love you all.

And to my  self,
You made it! You deserved a well blessed Christmas. Start the new year with a glowing heart and stronger faith. Don't lose your track, stay focus, positive and happy whatever comes to happen. Open your heart, and free it. Spread your wings now, and do what you love.

I want to thank all of you for contributing such joyous moments in my year.
As I move forward everyday, and every week miles away from you, also I always look forward to serve again someday and to be with you for good. Mahirap pala talaga mapalayo sa buhay na kinalakihan mo, sa lugar kung san ka natuto, sa nakasanayan mo, at sa mga taong pinakamamahal mo. I hope you are all doing fine.

Have a blessed Christmas world.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

CHEERS!

Why does it had to be you?

How do you stop the rain from falling?
And how can I stop myself from loving you? Why does it have to be? It had to be you?
How can I erase a beautiful rainbow? When this love has nowhere to go?
But why am I so blue because It just had to be you?
 
The beautiful rainbow that I was talking about which I waited for quite long time has arrived and started early of this year. We struggled as friends so we set some rules and limits. I thought I could manage my feelings, so I said we cannot go across the line. But after several months of controlling my personal feelings, I've fallen in-love with a man who cannot love only one person. So I proposed not to see him again, but apparently he didn't wanted me to go away from him, then finally said "He loves me" I've reminded him that he might just forgetting his current life and situation. But he disregarded it as for him, he wanted to enjoy the days with me, so he lost control and we became both confused everyday, we let everyday pass with the usual companion of each others voice over the phone almost about whole time of the day. Our relationship bloomed and what had followed was unconscious courtship, sleepless nights, frequent dates and then, much to our mutual wonderment, love.

I find myself frequently asks or think of the same questions above. I'm kinda alarmed for it's being repetitive every single idle time. I guess it's not that I am having some regrets from it "I believe I don't" but I think it's just because I miss "US".... I'm lost inside my mind and I can't stop myself from shedding tears. I've learned that it's true, love is really beyond our control.

Dear Ex,
Even though we aren't together and I hear nothing from you, I hope you're okay. Persevere with your dreams. If you keep on fighting you will defeat the opponent (our love), resist the temptation to talk to me like what you're doing now. It's been month and a half and I still carry the loneliness but worry not much I know it's part of moving on. I wish I could stop the pain and the rain from falling, I might can't escape now but soon it will because it just really takes time. Still I thank God for he has chosen me to be his instrument and I thank you for making me feel loved.
Advanced Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Love,
Rannellie