Love of her life: The clock is ticking

In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridged. -Hans Nouwens

Today, i've a very mixed emotions.

Mama's waiting for me at the lobby

Just this morning I, together with my mama went to embassy to pass the final requirements i needed to submit. I'm glad. Kasi matatapos na ang paghihintay, kumpleto na ang lahat. When i reached home i got a call from my aunt asking how was it. She mentioned that she's gonna have a follow up call to that office after two weeks to expedite the process. She told me that within 1-2 months, probably first or second week of September, I'll be with them. She told me, that i could take their language course first and see if i can go to a collage school in there. She told me that i wouldn't be that bored because I'll be with them, my cousins are there too, that we'll go out, we'll bond whenever they're free. She told me to save money, find a suitable job. Inviting, so I'm blessed to have this chance. Thank you Lord.

My besty made it!

Then i went to see my especial friend this afternoon and we did this page of a children's activity book. It brings me so much entertainment, it helps when i have this indescribable feeling.

Half of me wants to "take" this chance and part of me shouts "STAY". I am afraid thinking about the possible scenarios i would encounter when i get back, na baka iba na ang lahat, wala na yung ibang mahalagang tao sa buhay ko na sobrang pinahahalagahan ko, ang mga grupong humubog sa pagkatao ko, ang lahat. Iniisip ko nalang tuloy na "the only constant thing in this world is change" i hope hindi drastic changes ang madadatnan ko sa aking pag-balik.

Nasabi ko sa sarili ko... Mapagbiro ka talaga tadhana. Noon na gustong gusto ko umalis hindi mo ako kinuha, kung kelan masayang masaya ako sa piling ng mga kaibigan ko, ng especial someone ko, ng family ko, eto ka... China-challenge nanaman ako. I'll do my best. I will do this to in the name of love, for my family and for my future.

Dearest Friends,

You'll be in my heart and prayers. See you always.