Revived old passion - PAINTING

Today I wanna share about an old passion that I have been doing often now.

Thank you Lord.
Thank you Mama.
Thank you uncle Benny.
Thank you Ollie.
Thank you friends and family. 

They're Oliver and yours truly. I remember our first date and second walk in the middle of the night in the dark forest. He said I was so brave to go there with him, I wasn't scared but he was frightened. It was an unforgettable night.

This is my first work inspired by Per Hilo.

I'm driven by my faith, love for myself and to him. I did this out of overwhelming happiness that he brings to me. This is the first time I tried to paint within two colors alone.

On the right I was doing my first inspired John Korner's painting. It is not exactly the same but I got the colors right. No painting could be done exactly how the original picture looks like. I made my own J.K. version, and I am happy that my boyfriend loved it and like it.

On the left is my fan, my friend, my supporter and my lover who is also painting and collating great pictures from everyday. I love that man who brings out the best in me, he who believes that there would be great fruits in all these crafts. <3

We love being creative and productive together.
We can do this! We can do this! We can!

In commemoration of all souls day, I painted the lost souls in the spring forest. There are happy spirits who are enjoying in heaven.

My little gallery.... I hope I could have one day.

Autumnal summer house

Coldness.

When I was restarting. :)

On the left is my first painting created in Denmark.
-Charlottenlund fort at its best.

Travel, fly, and fulfill your dreams.

This is one of my favorite piece which is supposed to be dedicated to my special friend but Oliver got it because he really like this one  for his birthday. 

With my supportive love one.

Hello Colors! :O

PAINTING

I loved coloring books, I remember requesting colors and books from my mom whenever she come home from office to please visit National Bookstore to fetch something from me. I regret that I can't remember any single time that I thank her for giving me my orders. It all started when I was a kid with a high respect to my uncle Benny who is very good in painting, music, crafts and arts. He did a lot of wonderful paintings and portraits of some of our relatives that is why he first served as my idol and inspiration in doing the same amazing thing. I thought it was as easy as ABC but after few months I had lost my interest and was contented in the simple pictures I had made. Suddenly, I stopped after that. There after I didn't trust myself and so I was directed to another interest.

Last year when I restarted my life in Europe I also told and challenged myself to do an old thing that will make me productive and creative. So after 1 year of painting again I saw how I grew in arts and in reality of life. Some of my work are just drafts and some of them are really personal. My boyfriend said, if he will see my painting somewhere and someday he would know I did that, he would know those are mine. I paint what amazed me, I paint my feelings, I paint pictures, places, circumstances, and people I love. I paint with my heart.

Our journey had just begun

I was in deep pain last May, feeling rejected by my first and ex-boyfriend after trying to communicate with him by calling or greeting him a Happy Birthday. I found myself in deep desperation trying to find acceptable reasons to understand him. I was lost, totally sad, and then I seriously did enormous prayer to stop my heart breaking. Well It isn't new to you that I'm sharing about my unforgettable past.

It was sometime within my moving on final days/stage someone came over to me saying
Man: Hej, My name is Ollie.. would you know what to do if your bike has just been stolen?
I turned around and looked at the owner's voice. I saw this nice looking man, with frustrations about his stolen bike, at first I thought he was sick so I answered ''Maybe you should call the police?'' then he said oh yes yeah. I was concerned and asked him the details of it but after searching with nothing, I asked him if where is his place cause he might get lost if he's new to this city. Then we figured out that we live nearby. Given so he proposed if I would like to walk with him since we have the same way. I first thought that would be nice but I was too careful with full attention thinking that maybe He's not as nice person in contrast to his outlook.  Maybe He's a jerk, I wondered why he was so friendly and so nice to me. But since it is a safe municipality, I agreed to walk along.

Along the road we talked about Denmark, life in Denmark, the people in Denmark, the rules and the common problems about bike. He had almost told me his complete identity listening to his wonderful stories in life.Told him that I'm going to travel in Rome in few days so that's what I'm looking forward at the moment. I was a bit interested when he mentioned that he's a professional artist studied at one of the most and finest arts school in this world which is located in London. I'm not a certified artist but I do like to be creative, artistic, and likes painting and playing music a lot. So that served as our common ground. We talked about our beliefs and lives and I felt like we have some same views in life. So, at the end of road we had to separate ways, told him this is my way. See you whenever I see you it was nice meeting you. Thought he'd just say goodbye and wouldn't have the interest to continue the journey but he smiled and asked if he can get my number. Keeping myself in safeness I had to ask him ''why?'' and he said ''maybe we can walk and talk again sometime because it is very nice to know you.'' with that reason I was convinced and said ''ok'' I suppose I have a new and first friend in town so I left him with words ''good that I have a new friend''.

After few days finally my dream came true. I prayed in all churches, visited and wished a lot about everybody and ofcourse for myself. The movie When In Rome was actually late for me, I never knew that saying about the famous fountain before I come there. But I'm linking this to attest myself or to have my own testimonial about the magical and holy city. And I got the chance to throw my wishes in this mystical fountain. They say if you throw a coin here, you will meet the love of your life.

After few weeks I heard a good news about my friend which I really included in my wishes. And then after a month and a half, Oliver and I started our good friendship that lead us to loving and committing ourselves to each other. We are always looking forward to do a lot of things together as great friends/ good partners. I couldn't express myself enough in writing how happy I am to have him in my life.

From crying in pain he turned it around, now I'm overwhelmed with tears of joy.. I'm just wondering, what if I didn't lose my first love? What if I didn't let go of my past? What if he didn't lose his favorite bicycle and had the courage to know me? What if I was too hard to him at first? What if we didn't gave us a chance? What if we missed that very rare opportunity? What if we didn't surrender our past? I'm glad we have each other.

Dear Father,

Lord, help us remember that our love for each other reflects your love for us.

May we empower one another to fulfill our purpose in life.

May our experience as a couple give us a preview of the oneness we will experience someday.

Help us to see that everything is either love or a call for love.

Help us to celebrate our similarities and honor our differences.

Help us to accept our limitations and utilize our talents.

Thank you for this opportunity, this life, and for my loving partner.

Amen.

May I report

It's been a long  time and so I'm back!

For the past few weeks I've been overwhelmed and occupied by various engagements and responsibilities which helped me to cope up everyday from being homesick, friend-sick, and lovesick. 

May 2013 had been so good to me and nailed 3 things I can never forget in my whole life.I have been blessed with so many wonderful things in life. First I passed my first module of Danish language examination. Secondly, I finally spent a day in the Vatican City where I also joined the Holy Mass, God t'was an amazing, fabulous, and beautiful day. I should write some more about my travel in Rome within a few. Then, third moment I'll always cherish is the day I had first conducted the Choir of Sankt Anne's Kirke during the 2nd Catholic International Concert, the concert goofed me. Everything went smooth and nicely done, several foreign nationals joined and I've received praises and positive outcomes about how we performed and how I handle the choir. Only I wish that my loved ones were there to witness that great event in my life. Oh well, I'll get back to you on that in a few days. 

Although my life sounds great at the moment, I have to be honest that most of my days I still feel empty and sometimes unhappy (It's not time to make drama here harhar!). In Denmark life is ssssssssoooooo fast. Everything should be done on time. 70 percent of the residents' lives was already organized before they were born. Comparing to Philippines, here you can easily get most of the things you need because of their good governance. I am so pleased to be here and to live here. Denmark is almost perfect.

I have tons of realization in life and I could say for my 8 months here, I am more matured. Have I changed a lot? Well, according to my stats I'm getting more fats day by day and I could be really fat within a few months if I would not control myself off from delicious food. My heart never changed, I still do what I love doin' and follow what my heart is telling. Am I smarter than yesterdays? Of course and I can guarantee you. Jokes!

Anyway I have lined up my good ideas waiting to be written I just hope to have enough time for it.
For now, I have to say goodbye as it's already late here, so I'll see you again in the next couple of days? Thank you. :)

Đừng lo Ate Nga!

Bạn bao nhiêu tuổi? 72 that was the first answer you gave me when I asked your age. Smart me that I got that answer right away and managed to have that getting to know conversation. Time's fast.

I was questioning myself what went wrong with you. Today I want the world to know this someone who's very special to me. She's my sister by choice of our Father in heaven. I was given to her and she's to me for God's great purpose only us could feel as sisters.

She taught me to live my life to the fullest.

She's very wise, good at almost all things, someone who's not so beautiful (joke), a happy person despite of hers. She who takes time to be with me to do funny simple happy things together, someone who never failed to cheer me up, someone who has the capacity of hitting my nape or forehead whenever I'm at the state of my stupidity. Someone who shares her own food and strength to me to make me feel good. She always try to help me to bring out the best of me. She encourages me more than a real sister can do. She is real, she is especial and wonderful. Dear Ate Nga, I wouldn't lie to you here. Tôi bị lạc. I'm getting more than sad whenever I see you sad or quiet. There's this awkwardness between us for the past 3-4 days and I don't want what's going on. I can't let you to be always like that, be fair to me ate.. You all know what I've been through but I hate that you are not telling me how you really feel. I can understand you Đừng lo... I am really worried to you even if you say you're just fine because I can see that you're troubled this day. You're changing a little bit. I am afraid to wake up one day without you here in Copenhagen. I know people come and go but like what I've told you, you're one of those people who I really treasure and love. Thank you for helping me to stand against and again. For teaching me. Bạn thật tốt! For loving me as your little sister. I wish that we will still continue our sisterhood until the end of our lives. Even if we are apart, got boyfriends or get married and have kids. I want to grow old knowing that I always have you as my big sister. Ate... Tôi thích đến Việt Nam một ngày nào đó and have good days with you there someday. Đừng lo! Tôi yêu bạn!

 Dear Father,

Thank you for allowing us to meet in this world. I pray for her good fortune and success in life. She's a great sister so please reward her of a very blessed and happy life. Let her always feel your love. Make her more beautiful because she needs that (kidding aside hahaha). Make her always safe and secured. Bless her father as she is always a blessing to us. I pray for our sisterhood to have no end for I love her like a real sister too. Father, grant her a peaceful mind and lastly, please select the best for her as you direct her toward her future plans. Thank you Father.

-Bong hee moon gyu young. LOL! Cha

The less of hope, the hotter the love.

I would like to begin with questions:

1. Have you ever been rejected by somebody who you REALLY LOVE?

2. Have you ever dumped somebody who REALLY LOVE you? 

None of the questions sound easy to answer. Questions after a question follow. How do you love? Until when can you love? How did you know that you are inlove? How could you say that you are really loving somebody? On and on, never ending q&a's there.

Lately, Love has been driving me so crazy. And now i know, this is how you feel when someone dumped you. I thought to be away from him will stop the love, emotions and deep attachment i have for him. But no, I just love him harder. Although often I'm loosing hope. 

Dear God, 

First of all i want to say thank you for this period of my life. Certainly it deepens my understanding a lot and i'm learning through it. Just please always look after us especially to my wounded heart. I weep and weep. My heart is badly bruised. Father I pray to stop my heart breaking. I pray for everything between us to become fair, just and fine. For whatever reasons why you entrusted this cross to me father i will take it. Just give me an intense strength and more love. 

"Around the world people love, we sing for love and dance for love, we compose poems and stories about love, we tell myths and legends for love, we kill for love, and we die for love." 

Precious days

I have not written anything about my stories for awhile because of my busy schedule. Busy for my duties at home, busy for my language course, busy for the church. There comes a time when i felt like I had no enough time for myself to continue my passion of arts, photography and music. More often I miss my old life with some old people within. I've often wonder how are those people I care most does their life at the current time despite of their very tight sched at work, family and social activities. I'm honored to know that God has given me a lot of people here who could comfort me when loneliness and emptiness strikes. Who could give me much of their time just to encourage me to continue my life and to make me feel valued. I am blessed with these people who also stay in contact with me even if the only way is online; twitter, skype or g+. However I often think about this friend of mine who I thought would care for me the most despite, I am afraid I am wrong. My heart beats fast everytime I see his name or everytime i get the chance of hearing something about him.

Last week of April, the first winter experience of my life had come to end. My friend said it's very surprising that even though it's already spring time the weather is still not that warm. 

About a week ago, I went out and bike alone along this majestic place in Hellerup-Charlottenlund and as I've always been, I get more than a fascinated feeling of happiness. That feeling like you are living in a wonderland. All you get are fresh air, clean sorroundings, beautiful sky, beach, and forest. Only good mountains are missing here. 

I was a bit surprised as well when I saw some blooming cherry trees aside from watching dasies, lillies, roses and other flowers bloom everywhere. And in this little forest where I sat down on a bench?  That is where I witnessed the leaves slowly falling apart from the trees, gracefully swaying in the air and merrily rolls in the ground. After that I mum and took photos again.

Today I remember one person who gave me this kind of same feeling at the exact same date last year when we had a date. I always treasure wonderful moments we had. He is so special to me and still loving and praying for him despite. 

Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth. -Mark Twain

Happy 25th ate Joyce!

Parang kahapon lang naglalaro tayo sa Tom's world at nagvivideoke, ngayon birthday mo nanaman. Nakiki ayon ang panahon at pabilis ng pabilis ang mga araw ilang taon nalang magkikita na ulit tayo. Malapit na yun haha.. I hope maging madali na sa atin ang communication para lagi na tayo magkausap.. I miss you ate........... Super. I am really thankful kay Lord as I always say, kasi I know dumaan man ang lang birthday and all we will remain good friends and sisters in Christ. I love you te, and I really mean it. I'll always pray for you.Ingat ka palagi, and I'm just waiting online to share time with you ate... 

Thank you for all. Cheers to your new year!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

I LOVE YOU! 

-CHA

Kakamiss!

M12

Naglakad lakad ako kasama ng mga kaibigan ko sa dalampasigang nagyeyelo sa lamig at habang naglalakad ay hindi napigilan ng aking kaibigan ang magbahagi ng kanyang iniisp patungkol sa nakaraan niyang Marso. Ang pagsasariwa ng magagandang alaala nya ay aking nadama, at ako nama'y tahimik na nakakarelae sa cute nyang experience. Patungkol ito sa kanyang especial na kaibigan.Ang kanyang mga linya ay ganito... Nagsimula nung pinakilala sya ng kaibigan nya sa kanyang kaibigan.

Friend: Crush daw ako ng kaibigan nya. Nung time na yun tinanggap ko sya bilang tagahanga lamang ng mga bagay na nagagawa ko sa buhay ko sa ngalan ng talento sa musika at sining. Naging inspirasyon ako ng kaibigan nya hanggang sa nagdulot ng magandang epekto sa araw araw nya ang aming paguusap. Hindi nagtagal kagaya ng normal na taong may puso, unti unti kaming napalapit sa isat isa at nagkahulugan ng loob. Masaya na mahirap ang aming naging relasyon.
Naghahanap ng lugar kung san magiging malaya sa mata ng publiko na parang mga artista sa showbizz. Madalas na mag-mall ngunit di man lamang magkatabing maglakad o magka-hawak kamay. Isa kasi iyong bawal na pag-ibig ika nga nila. Nagplanong lumayo ng magkasama pero wala ni isa sa mga binalak namin ang natupad. Akala ko noon makakayanan namin ang pagsubok ng distansya pero hindi naglaon kami ay nagdisisyong maging magkaibigan na lamang.

Ngaun ko napatunayang totoo pala yung mga kwento na napapanood ko sa t.v. Noong bata pa ako. Tipong magkaibigan lang kahit na sukdulan ang pagmamahal nila sa isat isa. Natatawa ako noon sa mga inisip kong walang kwentang palabas. Pero mahirap pala talaga yun. Ngayon ko lang rin naiintindihan kung bakit merong mga tumatandang single. Haha

Sa ngayon masaya ako sa nangyayari sa buhay ko (luhang may ngiti) pero hindi ko maitatagong ngangungulila ako sa especial kong kaibigan, Sa king mga kaibigan at pamilyang naiwan ko sa pilipinas. Walang linaw kung kelan ako uuwi. Natatakot ako at wala pang lakas ng loob. Maaring di na muna ako bumalik. Gusto ko kasi makatulong sa kanya, at sa aking pamilya. Isang taon na ang nakakaraan.. Masarap sariwain ang mga kasiya siyang alaala. Lubos kong pinasasalamatan ang Panginoon sa lahat lahat...

Dahil dyan eto ang kanta para sayo kaibigan...  
"Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa..
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Ngunit sa isip ko na lamang."

Huling mga linya nya ay "Hinahayaan ko nalang ang panahong magdikta para sa amin. Kulang ako... Pero mahahanap ko rin ang destinasyon ko pagdating ng panahon. Kung pwede lang sana.."
Wala ako nasabi kung hindi "hay" sabay akap sa kanya. Naalala ko tuloy ang aking nakaraang marso.

Spring

For it is spring time.

Ice skate

God is in control.

The picture on the right side was how I celebrated the valentines day last year. The lady from the left is one of my beloved friends in ph, and also like a sister so dear to me, She is Ate Joyce. Next in line is Alberta, my magnificent sisterloo too, he manage to have a very high energy all the time. And the man standing at my back is cousin Briant.We had a group date at UP, sunkin garden fair and it was good.





Today, this is how it goes-->
Oooopps. It's not what you think I did. That's our valentines party organized by the youth of St. Anne.

The ladies above are my newest true friends and sisters in Christ.

Starting with Jamie from the left, Sarah and then Anne.

Enjoy the pictures! :)

At Valby train station.

The way home.

ME and Jamie